Ctrl Alt Del

I have rebooted myself!  I have been trying to lose a certain number of pounds for the past two years.  During that time I have set new goals, achieved them and been moving to improve some of them.  The thing is, I lost focus on what I really want to do and that was to lose weight to be healthy and fit.   Regardless of what others think is a good weight for me, it is what I think is important and right for me that counts.

While training for a ½ marathon is great, I seem to plateau on the weight loss side of it.  I have read articles that talk about running and losing weight and they all say the same thing, - if you are expecting large losses, don’t train for races.  And it’s true.  I became so obsessed with training for my runs that I forgot all about the reasons I started running and the loss I want.  Then I realized that I was paying money to go to WW every week and the scale wasn’t moving.  I have slowed my running down and this week I hit the ctrl alt delete keys in my head and have totally rebooted myself mentally this week. 

I lost my vision and focus as I became self competitive to set a personal best for running, when what I should have been really been looking at is what my original plan was.  I can challenge myself to lose weight just as easily as I can challenge myself to pick up the pace and move my feet faster.  I know that when I reach my desired weight, I will be able to set personal bests and it is all about me and what I want.

I am refocusing on the weight loss and fitness aspect of my program and will run/walk/jog my way through this next ½ marathon at my own pace because I made that commitment to do it.