Being raised in a military family, we changed addresses often, not as much as some, but more than others. I don’t have a childhood home – and that is okay with me. If I could get away with it, I have my furniture replaced every couple of years, I’d buy a new car as soon as I paid off the current one, I’d change my clothes 3 times a day at work. I don’t need consistency, I can cope with change.
So why is that I find myself resisting a change in my running methods. I have the National Capital Race weekend in 2 weeks. I feel so not prepared. I must admit when I did my first ½ back in September, I had this feeling too. It feels like I won’t even get 5 K in. I know that is not true, it’s just that nervous, icky feeling – and I don’t like it!
I know I have been building my endurance with spinning and swimming, I just have no desire to get out there and run. It just feels like boredom with running is creeping in. The runner’s high I get when I finish any run is still there. It’s the getting my backside in gear to get out and do it where I lack the motivation.
I have always enjoyed my running solo. I was able to clear my head of dust and cobwebs – it can get pretty crowded in there if I don’t dust regularly. I didn’t have to talk to anyone; I didn’t have to worry about increasing my pace. I could go at my own pace. I now myself wondering on my runs if I am not challenging myself enough or maybe have even set my sights too far ahead of myself that I am trying to look beyond the NCR weekend and heading towards the beer tents at the Boilermaker run. Maybe my shoes just aren’t the right ones and the aches in my legs are from them and that’s why I don’t want to get out there and run. That I will find out more next week when I venture into the technology world and get hooked up to some thingies that will measure my gait etc.
So I am going to tackle one thing at a time. So even though I am not a fan of the Running Room format, I will make my way down this Sunday morning at the crazy hour of 8:30 am and do a trial run. I will learn rather quickly if the ticket I am missing is running in a group. And maybe, just maybe, I have to kick it down and run more often so I can remember the great high I get from the run. I won’t know until I try out all my options.
What I love about this journey is that I get to change my mindset often. I started out a solo runner and now I may have progressed myself to the point where I need to make a small change – like group running or even just a running buddy or even just my shoes. No matter what it is, a change has to be made and I will embrace it!
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