I thought I'd dwell a little on my previous blog about being a crazy planner. I had a huge line up of stuff to do this past weekend. I can barely recall everything off the top of my head. Sunday was an insanely busy day for me with a 5K WW walk, a Jamboree and a run that I could hopefully fit in. The one thing I knew.... I had to plan exactly what I was going to eat all day Sunday and stick to it.
I started Sunday off with a piece of toast, peanut butter and some jam. All measured out exactly by the way! I really didn't want to eat too much before the 5K walk. This weekend WW and the Running Room partnered up for a 5K walk. It was awesome. My weekly meeting leader organized all the people that she leads throughout the city to wear yellow shirts and meet at one location and walk together. The location we were at didn't expect such a huge crowd, and although they said they were not prepared, they did a great job getting us going. There had to be at least 100 of us (this does not include the other people who were not from our leaders' meetings). There are many many many shades of yellow in the colour spectrum! I volunteered to be a group walking leader so that we could keep the people moving and not bunching up. I met some interesting people and loved the early morning walk. It doesn't matter what anyone did in terms of time,what mattered was the experince and that we all did it!
Post walk I snacked on some cherries and oranges and some baby bel cheese rounds. As I started to head to the jamboree at the rugby park, I started to think back to what I would do when I stepped out of the car upon my arrival. In the past, a trip to the rugby park for me meant smoking cigarettes, drinking beer and having a hot dog or burger, some chips and some maybe a few other not so healthy choices for me. I kept telling myself not to worry, I had my handy dandy cooler stacked with cucumbers, black bean dip, quinoa and black bean, with artichoke, zucchini. Back up oranges, apples and perrier were not far away. To boot, I haven't had a smoke since 6:00 PM, December 31, 2010 so getting through 5 hours smoke free would be a walk in the park. I must say I had the jitters. It was like the day my water broke and I had to go the hospital, I had no idea what it was going to be like. It was very nerve racking for me.
When the action got underway, I had no time to think about food. When we broke for our lunch, the kids headed for the hot dogs, burgers, chips, pop (soda), and bars while I opted to grab my cooler. I didn't even want to have a burger or a hot dog, not even a craving for it! I sat with a few parents who also brought some homemade meals to eat. Imagine my internal shock when I pulled out my lunch and no one even blinked at what I was eating, whether they simply didn't care or just thought it was normal is irrelevant. My concern that someone would say something about what I ate was all for naught. The games started adn I had no time to think about me any more, the kids had to get out to play out on the pitches again.
The day was done and I was on my way home when WHOA NELLY -- IT dawned on me ..... I just hit a massive milestone. I can no longer use being concerned or afraid of what others will say when it comes to planning my meals for outing adventures. I have dropped an old bad habit and found myself a new one, packing a healthy meal when I need to. I now know that I can go places where I didn't make healthy choices before and make or bring the right choices and not feel embarrassed in doing so.
These past months where I have been avoiding people, is my own doing. I am so thrilled to have come to the realization that I am the only one who has to be concerned about the choices I make and eat.
I will take the "I told you so" from everyone who has so diligently pointed this bit of wisdom out to me over the past couple of years.
I hope that my friends will forgive my selfishness and we can go from just keeping in touch to hanging out again!
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