Getting my Stuff Together

So after a month of whoa is me stuff, I have managed to get two triathlons under my belt. After the 70.3, I was and still am pretty disappointed in my results. The only way to get over it is to really get back on the bike and move forward.

I decided at 5:00 pm on the Friday before the Early Bird Try a Tri. Just to get back into the swing of things and to see if I actually wanted to continue with triathlon training or stick to running. It was a short swim, short bike and a short run but a start. Geordie made a very valid point, I am now Ironman educated. I have a better understanding of what I really need to do to get the results I want.

I left my bib in the car, so had to go back and get that, then got to the pool and realized I left the timing chip in the bike bag, so had to run back, get the chip and run back to the pool. Pushed hard in the pool, walked my way back to the transition, saw Jill and Dean. More or less lollygagged as I was dreading the bike ride.  Turns out it wasn’t so bad, put on my new Netwons, went for a run on grass that was soft, mushy and uneven. I didn’t leave everything on the course, I just wanted to get out and do it!

Crossing the finish line with the OTC tent there and some chocolate milk, was great. The OTC team is supportive and I came away feeling better about getting back on track.

Earlier this week, Jill texts me Perth Tri this weekend? I figure she is in, so I go ahead and register. 500 m swim, 18k bike ride and a 3k run, not too shabby. I text back to see if Jill wants to car pool and turns out she’s not registered. She does do it finally which is awesome. We head out on the road today, talk about the April race. We have no idea what the Perth Pool Triathlon has to offer except a potluck afterwards.

 

We get checked in – no bibs and for the first time they have timing chips. The pool swim is interesting for me, I like the two people per lane, however I said 20 minutes for the swim, and that was the wave I was in, after 10 minutes there was only two people left in the pool, me and one other lady. I lost count in between 7 and 9 so when I thought I was done 10, out I went. Didn’t lollygag too much in the transition, just wanted to feel comfortable before getting on the bike. Believe it or not, I actually enjoyed the bike ride, except for a few bumpy spots, run was okay. I walked/jogged the 3k in my newtons, but wore the wrong socks.

I haven’t done much training (read between the lines – almost none to even less)

Post-race thoughts – get a massage right after, must say have done it twice and feel awesome afterwards. I am definitely looking forward to getting back on track, training to be faster, stronger and get through the mental stuff (and stuff is all it is). I may or may not do this race again. The post-race atmosphere is great, prizes are awarded in food and anything not handed out is free to those who wish to take stuff back with them.

 

I had another fun race and it was great to see other OTC folks on the course. 

Again Jill, thanks for getting me out there!

The Agony of Defeat

Indeed I am showing my age. If you are old enough to remember that little bit of a phrase, then you will find humour in this. If you don’t know what my title means, then you have yet to live.

I trained for a 70.3, but did I train hard enough, that is what was in my mind always. I now have the answer. No I did not. No matter how much you train inside, nothing prepares you for what happens outside.

It has been a long winter, and I am the first to admit, I can be pretty fair weather when it comes to getting outside. I don’t mind it when it’s hot, and when it’s smoking hot, as in frying eggs off your bike seat, I may be a little skeptical of being outside in the sunshine for a long time.

We arrived on Thursday evening, and I acclimatized myself rather quickly. Never mind I have lived most of my life in Canada and have seen more winters than most Southerners, I love the heat. My pre-race bike and run had me soaked and I was loving the feel of it all.

The night before race day, I enjoyed a healthy meal and a beverage and a relaxing dinner with friends and hit the hay at 9:30. It was taking me a while to fall asleep, so I did some mental training. Some visualization, it was difficult to see me crossing the line, yet I still felt comfortable with being able to finish this and even nailing the bike ride.

I woke up at o’dark thirty (3:30 am) and there was no way I would go back to sleep while I waited for my husband to get up and head out in one hour. So I lay on the bed and did more mental training. I checked to make sure I had everything ready to go. What to wear, how it was placed in the bag, all the tags, extra snacks, and Nuun tablets. My energy must have flowed around and woke up my husband. I fueled up on some oatmeal, a banana and some water.  The forecast the night before was potential thundershowers/storms. I prayed for intermittent rain. I must have prayed a little too hard, it was 75 at 4:30 in the morning and it was only going to get hotter.

On the drive down we agreed that if I couldn’t beat the bike cut off time by at least 30 minutes, there was a possibility that I would not be able to finish. However I was rather confident that I could do it. We drove ½ the bike course (the first ½) and the run course. The water looked great and the prediction for race day was wetsuit legal.

Upon arrival, yes it was wetsuit legal and I still wasn’t sure if I was going to wear my 3/4 wet suit. I am too large for a well fitted one so mine is a little lacking on the legs and arms and neoprene. I checked into transition – I love that they have a spot for your bike and you don’t have to fight for a spot, everyone has to go the same distance in one direction or another. I am feeling excited and pumped. I regroup with my husband and we walk around for a bit, me in my bare feet and I am getting excited yet nervous! I decide to put on the wetsuit. Then I walk down to the water and step in up to my ankles – it is like lukewarm bathwater. Nope not wearing the suit, off it comes. We sit down to enjoy the scenes of the crowd and get a little more nervous, start thinking of all the things that could go wrong – a flat, a wipe out, start out too fast, get eaten by a gator – then I start to tell myself that I can do this.  And just like that I decide to take the wet suit off, seconds before going into the corral for the swim. There’s a two minute wait after you have crossed the chip mat and another 4 minutes before you start your swim. Does that time get deducted from your swim time – I hope so!

When I step into the water, I feel like I am in heaven, so glad I decided to go sans wetsuit. We start, I pace, I talk to myself to ensure I don’t try to bust a lung beating everyone and conserve a little energy. I find my steady pace and move along. The six minutes it takes for me to get ahead of the next wave is pretty good. The fastest of the following waves start to pass and I approach the first turn of the M, then I get decked in the back of the head by some dude who thinks he’s Michael Phelps, my hand gets caught in the pull cord of some swimmer and I had to yank my hand out which may have resulted in the suit getting a little loose on them. As I finish the last leg of the M swim, I get hit again in the back of the head. I thought I was doing the right thing staying far away from the markers. I exit the water with no concept of time a little out of breath but not sucking wind. The only sound I hear is the voice of my hubby shouting that I am right on time and to keep going. I wander through transition, calming myself for the upcoming ride.

I get through transition, drying off between my toes, cleaning up a bit, having a half banana, a quick electrolyte drink and a Lara bar and I am so ready to go. The aisle way is clear for me and as I cross the mount line, some guy wipes and I get of kilter and almost crash. With my rapid ability to unclip myself, I manoeuver the bike around him and carry on. I get out on the bike and it starts out as a good ride and few little hills which seem like nothing. At this point I am thankful for Kym and Graeme and all the indoor biking classes. When I hit the 5 mile marker I check my watch to see that I am just shy of 20 minutes – so I base the rest of the race on 5 miles at 20 minutes – 51 to go another 200 minutes so I will be around 3.5 hours. I try out the aero bars and it feels okay, not great but I will tough it out. Until I hit flat land, no trees and tons of wind – a perfect time to realize that I may be more wobbly using aero bars decide to alternate throughout the flat parts of the course on using them.

I had tons of fluid packed (all nuun in my 4 water bottles) I stopped at the aid stations and hydrated with water and had a 1/2 banana, ate my bars and kept biking. I was trying to make sure I was drinking as much as I could on the flat roads. Just after 25 miles I hit a hills a little larger than what I would call a rolling hill. I biked up them, not something I would have done last year and it was tough for me to get there, but I remembered what Brent told me and it got me to the top of the hill. 250 feet of elevation is freaking high. Pretty sure it was a 90 degree incline and this is where I feel the slightest pull in my hamstring.  On the third aid station I downed a bottle of water, filled up my water bottles, and dumped a bottle over me to cool down! And by then I could feel only pain in my ham strings. Shortly thereafter it became a very open road for cars, I swear I could touch cars as they went by me, which not only freaked me out but slowed me down, then when I pulled over for a drink break, an aid truck stopped to make sure I was okay, apparently he had been following me at a distance, and at the point I felt okay and that I may finish in the allotted time. I got back on the bike and headed off.  Two miles later I pulled over for another water break as I was going up a minor hill. An ambulance pulls up and they don't get out so I, figured they were just checking. I still had people passing me on the bike and then when I checked the time I wasn’t quite ready to bail but started to doubt finishing and my ham strings were starting to pull hard on my right side. I had a pounding headache (sure sign of dehydration) and knew with only 6 miles to go I could push myself, I just had to speed up.  Sadly I had another hill to climb and in the distance it looked like many more to come and I could feel the heat from the ambulance riding so close to my back tire. It was probably the sun but I could hear the diesel sound and that just aggravated my freak out more. Cars would rush past the ambulance and darn near hit me pulling back in. I got back on the bike went down a little hill and then a corner and another hill! Me with my personal ambulance service trailing so close behind. I checked my watch it was 1:00 and I had 20 minutes to finish 4 miles. Between the head and leg pain and the too close for comfort with cars, I started to think about the agreement I had with Marc, I knew that finishing the bike was still possible, however the run not so much. I couldn’t limp 21K in less than 3 hours. Making my third stop for water in less than 15 minutes and I guess I looked bad because this time the boys got out of the bus to make sure I was okay! I realized that I wasn’t and better safe than sorry.

I got a long slow ride back to the transition, I was devastated. I have never not completed something I set out to do unless it involved housework. I am very disappointed in myself, and while others say they are not disappointed and I should be proud of what I have accomplished, I feel that I let myself and a few others down.

There are many bright sides to this:

1)      I realized I am not nearly as fit as I like to think I am

2)      I need to keep my goals smaller to work towards bigger ones

3)      My husband is my biggest supporter and my friends and family are freaking amazing

4)      I really really really dislike (this is a mild word) riding the bike and need to work on it

5)      Training all winter indoor does nothing for me outdoors

6)      While I don’t mind riding in the wind – a little from behind never hurts

7)      I may have fallen or failed, yet this doesn’t define me – what I do when I get back up is what is important to me

Ahhhh……

The Wide World of Sports

The Thrill of Victory – I almost made it 2/3rds of the way

The Agony of Defeat – My body hurts, my ego is deflated.

Training Mentally and not .....Shiny! opps Getting Distracted

Again, it’s been a long time since writing. Sometimes I want to write but then I see something shiny and I get distracted. This is a thing of mine. The attention span of a pea, easily diverted to doing something else. So a recap of things and where I am today.

Packed on some more pounds and not the good muscle type of pounds. More like the bacon, wings, donuts, pizza pounds. This thing I have with food, well it just kills me. I see food and I want to eat it, even if I am not hungry. So this is going to be my next challenge. Get back to the healthy eating I was doing before.

Working at Lowe’s and then getting a contract with the feds wasn’t going to give me much time to focus on training. The folks at Lowe’s have been great and let me take some time away so I could train. Pretty sure I am going to owe some major baking for that one. Training started out slow and I really focussed on my swimming and biking.

Bought myself a new pair of shoes, and with the crappy weather, well I was sticking to my fair weather running philosophy - if it was not nice out, I wasn’t going. So I spent some time on the treadmill. Most of you know that the ‘mill is the least motivating training device. Never feels like I am getting very far, and again I get easily distracted. I trained without music, which makes it even harder for me. I went for a few lunch time run, or even a run home. The run home from work was my favourite - took me a while, but I persevered and am pleased with the results.

I received a lovely birthday present of a Kurt Kinetic trainer for the Pony, it was awesome. I was in the pool 3 days a week and on the bike at home twice a week and once a week at the Cast Iron classes with the OTC. The great thing about that weekly class, I rode for 4 hours every week, and I learned what not to wear, what to lube up and picked up so much information that I would never have had on the trainer at home. I learned that you don’t wear underwear under your bike shorts - it creates chaffing and other painful things. Oh ya, got myself a new pair of shoes and pedals for the bike. I am so grateful for all the help and advice from Allie, Kim, Kym, Graham, Brent, Garry, Justin and well pretty much the two groups. So much so, I treated everyone almost every week to some GF treat or an almost one. I will say, with all the stuff I have for my bike, I am actually looking forward to the bike ride.

I was in the pool all the time, I love the water. With the few gadgets I had for my swim (a water tight case for my iphone) I could keep track of my laps and time. Sometimes my daughter amazes me with the great little gifts she gives! I think it was meant for the hot tub, but I love it in the pool.

I have done some major long runs, long swims and long rides. I have also missed some sessions for various reasons.

The mental process of training for a race of any distance can be daunting. I love to train on my own, I like the solace on the run where I can clear my head, the feel of the water cascading over me in the water is so soothing and well believe it or not on the bike by myself on the trainer, I get to watch a lot of tv shows I would normally not watch, leaving my mind blank.

The start of this past weekend and the mental training was starting to get tough. I started to doubt things, wondered if I was actually losing my ever loving mind. Started to panic about what I would do if I couldn’t make it to the finish in the time allotted. All the freaky things. The great thing about the OTC and knowing people who have experienced these feeling has been a blessing for me.

Brent got me started on mental training, then I went to my Cast Iron class, cried while I thanked everyone for their support, advice and tricks and tips. Then I realized that the week leading up to Florida was going to be emotional. On Sunday I went to Brent’s Boston Marathon World Run event, met up with a guy I knew way back in the day. He’s had some rough patches, pulled himself together is so wise. Unknowingly, Pierre inspired me to suck it up, and gave me some advice on the mental preparation - and it works every time I close my eyes! Then I went to the S.W.E.E.T. event at Bushtukah with my friend, sis-in-law and a few other women. Members of the club were there and they were so supportive and encouraging, I had to hold back the tears. Then Cat came out to speak about Trips for Kids - what a fantastic program. I was amazed, she sure does a lot for kids who have little and for those who want to do. Well when Sindy Hooper spoke, I am pretty sure there wasn’t a dry eye in the place. If you don’t know her story, check it out at http://lifetri.blogspot.ca/2014/04/sweet.html.  Oh boy the tears fell. What an amazing woman. As I recall her journey, remember hearing about her last year I remember my favourite saying - NO EXCUSES - if this woman can take on Ironman Canada in Whistler BC and miss qualifying for Kona by two spots in the middle of chemotherapy, I have no freaking excuse or reason to no hit it hard core on Sunday. Turns out on Sunday, Sindy and I will be starting the race together in the same wave. Don’t set limits on yourself, and don’t let others set limits for you!

I hope to take you on the race day journey with me when I post again after the race and then regularly when I get back to the reality of my journey to being healthy and happy.

Thank you everyone for taking the time to read this, to support me, to keep me competitive and to believe in me.